Continued from here.
The day after I wrote yesterday’s blog entry, I attended an evangelism meeting at my church. We talked about a presentation I am building on talking about our faith: why we need to do it and how. I felt so alive in that meeting and did not have a whit of anxiety during or after it. I realized that my focus was on God rather than my problems, and I felt the difference between a “life” and “death” focus in a tangible way.
And then God pounded home the same message during my quiet time the next morning. I read the following quote in Daily Wisdom for Women 2017 Devotional Collection:
Try ‘abiding, not striving nor struggling.’” ~ Hudson Taylor’s friend
Next was this quote in Jesus Always: Embracing Joy in His Presence:
Relax in My loving Presence.’”
And then this quote from Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing the Will of God (Workbook):
To be God’s servant, you must be moldable and remain in the hand of the Master.”
When I hear the same message three times in a row, I take notice.
I am now getting a better understanding of what I keep doing “wrong.” I have a similar nature to Peter and Paul, always running ahead of God, zealous to do His will but not waiting for His signal to act. Both men truly wanted to serve God, but their view of servanthood aligned too much with the world’s view – as soon as they thought they knew where God was going, they ran out ahead of Him and tried to do the job themselves. I don’t know if this caused them anxiety or not, but that’s what happens to me when I do it. Like Peter and Paul, God can use me to go boldly where He leads, but I first must learn to follow, just as they did.
[Graphic: Cartoon of Grace running and saying, “Let’s go!” Courtesy Bitmoji.]