Continued from here.
I am currently reading Lysa TerKeurst’s excellent book, It’s Not Supposed to Be This Way: Finding Unexpected Strength When Disappointments Leave You Shattered. While I have enjoyed everything I have read by TerKeurst, this book is in a league of its own because it’s so real, raw, and authentic. She wrote the book while she and her husband were separated due to his ongoing affair, and she did not know at the time that God would restore, heal, and reconcile them in the future. (They renewed their vows in December.)
Of course, TerKeurst questioned why God allowed her husband to be seduced by another woman and why their many counseling sessions had not seemingly born fruit. For someone who built her ministry on being a Proverbs 31 wife, this kind of attack on her marriage had to be particularly devasting. One of the things she learned through this extremely painful season, which she writes about in her book, is this:
God does not want to be explained away. He wants to be invited in. ~ Lysa TerKeurst
When we place God on the witness stand and cross-examine Him, we put him in an adversarial position that He never intended. He doesn’t want the barrier of a witness stand erected between you and Him. Instead, He wants you to invite Him in to hold and carry you as you suffer and struggle. He wants to be your safe place to curl up and cry when nothing in your life is making sense. And He wants you to trust that He is working this – even THIS – for good. He wants you to trust His character and His heart when you cannot trust what you see.
I know this is tough to do. I’ve lived it. I wanted God to provide me with answers for why he let a helpless little girl be sold to the highest bidder as her body was exploited by one evil person after another. I wanted Him to explain why He didn’t step in and rescue me from the hands of those evil people for three more years after I received Jesus as my Savior at age 8. Why, God? Why? My healing didn’t come from receiving some magical explanation that enabled me to see how much sense my suffering made in the grand scheme of things. It came when I invited God in to heal my shattered heart by taking the dust of my brokenness and crafting it into something new.
To be continued…
[Graphic: Cover of It’s Not Supposed to Be This Way: Finding Unexpected Strength When Disappointments Leave You Shattered. Courtesy Amazon.]