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Of course, I wanted this miracle to happen right away. I’ve cried oceans of tears over this area of bondage over the past few decades. I’ve felt deep shame over my brokenness. I’ve cried out about how unfair it was for me to suffer in this area of my life as I have, and I cried double because of the effects my bondage had on the people I love.
If God had waved a magic wand and healed me instantly the first time I asked, I would only have received the healing. Because of His perfect timing, I not only have the healing, but I also have a close, deep, personal, and intimate relationship with God! I have learned to trust Him – that He will carry me through, strengthening me where I’m weak and enabling me to go on when I have lost all strength or even desire to keep going.
In one of her Bible studies, Beth Moore noted that God is not concerned about our comfort. That rubbed me the wrong way when I first heard her say it, but I now better understand what she means. It’s not that God wants us to be uncomfortable – it’s that his primary purpose for us is fruitfulness, not comfort. Pruned vines bear more fruit than vines that have not been pruned, and pruning is uncomfortable! God allows us to endure uncomfortable – and even painful – experiences … sometimes for decades! … in order to make us more fruitful. Yes, I endured much pain in my life in this particular area, but I now have the testimony to bear much fruit for a particular segment of society who suffer in ways that I once suffered. I can look them in the eye and say, “God is GOOD and bigger than this pain,” and they will know I speak truth because I can show them my scars.
If you are in a difficult or impossible situation, don’t give up! Your Heavenly Father is much bigger than your problem. Your slow miracle may be in the works right now. Just because you cannot see the roots forming underground doesn’t mean the seed is not transforming into a beautiful tree.
[Graphic: Cartoon of Grace holding up a pocket watch and asking, “When?” Courtesy Bitmoji.]
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Some people do not believe that miracles happen … or if they did happen in the past, God no longer does them today. They point out that if God was still in the business of doing miracles, we would see evidence of them all around us. Some believe that what the people of Jesus’ time called “miracles” can be explained away through reason and science.
All I can tell you is that I have personally experienced God’s miraculous work in my life. He healed my post-traumatic stress disorder, my anxiety disorder, my eating disorder (all slow miracles), and now this – the one area of brokenness that I did not believe God would ever heal … and yet He did. I don’t think He did it just for me: I believe He is going to use this testimony as part of my ministry as He leads me to shine the light of hope and healing into the lives of people who lack both.
If you don’t believe that God will perform a miracle in your life, you could block yourself from receiving the miracle. Jesus would ask people whether they believed he could heal them, and they would be healed according to their faith. Don’t let your own lack of faith stand in the way of receiving a slow miracle. If you lack faith, follow the example of the father who asked Jesus to help him overcome his unbelief. God will provide even the faith, but you must be open to receiving it.
I know how disheartening it is to have faced the same problem day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year, and even decade after decade. That was my story for most of my life, and yet I stand before you today HEALED! I don’t know how God did it, nor do I know why it took Him soooo long to do it. All I know is that I was once in such heavy bondage in this area of my life that I had no hope of it ever improving. I was simply grateful when this part of my life transformed from being less painful. Today, it’s a JOY! I marvel at how God can take something that was so ugly & broken and make it something beautiful that brings JOY!
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[Graphic: Cartoon of Grace holding up her hands and saying, “I believe!” Courtesy Bitmoji.]
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When Jesus performed miracles, he told the recipients to keep the news private: between themselves and God. Here’s an example:
A man with leprosy came to him and begged him on his knees, ‘If you are willing, you can make me clean.’ Jesus was indignant. He reached out his hand and touched the man. ‘I am willing,’ he said. ‘Be clean!’ Immediately the leprosy left him and he was cleansed. Jesus sent him away at once with a strong warning: ‘See that you don’t tell this to anyone. But go, show yourself to the priest and offer the sacrifices that Moses commanded for your cleansing, as a testimony to them.’ Instead he went out and began to talk freely, spreading the news. As a result, Jesus could no longer enter a town openly but stayed outside in lonely places. Yet the people still came to him from everywhere” (Mark 1:40-45).
This miracle in my life was so profound that it took me close to six months to share it. And even then, I am only sharing the news to glorify God. For example, I recently shared the news with someone who I used to complain about the issue with “back in the day” as a way of encouraging her to hold onto her faith amidst a very difficult (impossible) situation that she is currently dealing with in her own life. I want her to know that God is bigger than this seemingly impossible situation, that He is faithful, and that He is capable of carrying her though until the miracle comes. And my motive for sharing about this miracle in general terms on this blog is to encourage you along your own journey – to give you hope that God can heal your impossible situation as well.
Something shifted six months ago, awakening me to the reality that God was very close to healing this area of bondage. And then one piece of evidence after another happened that validated that God had, indeed, performed a slow miracle in my life. I only talked with God about this miracle for months because it was private – an intimate experience between my Heavenly Father and me. Not only did this slow miracle glorify God, but it also invited me in to a deeper, more intimate relationship with Him as He and I shared this “secret” together.
What God has done for me is not intended as “entertainment” for the world. It’s not something that God did to wow people to come see for themselves so they can get healing. The purpose of the miracle was to draw me closer to God, and it did … in ways that I cannot even put into words. As my relationship with Him deepened over the past six months, my perspective of Him shifted. Now, I am able to share the great news about his profound healing power from the perspective of God being the focus of the story, not the miracle itself.
To be continued…
[Graphic: Cartoon of Grace holding her finger to her lips and saying, “Shhhhh.” Courtesy Bitmoji.]
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The area of my life in which a miracle has recently taken place plagued me for decades. If it’s true that God saves all of our tears, one huge ocean is filled with nothing but the tears I shed over this particularly painful area of bondage that plagued me for my entire life. I used to complain about this problem – A LOT. In fact, friends who knew me “back in the day” who read this blog may have a good idea what I’m talking about … and will be SHOCKED to read this!!
Several years ago, as I was crying out to God about this area of bondage for the millionth time, God placed heavily on my heart that He was going to heal it. I didn’t believe it. I actually asked, “In THIS lifetime??,” thinking that perhaps there really is such a thing as reincarnation and that God would start again in my next lifetime. I then asked, “In THIS relationship??” because I couldn’t see how this area of bondage, which involves the dynamics of another person and thus brings an extra set of challenges to be overcome, could possibly ever change. God’s answer to both was, “Yes – In THIS lifetime and in THIS relationship.” The Bible says that if someone states that God said X and it does not come to pass, then he is a false prophet. I was careful not to tell anyone for a very long time about sensing this promise from God because it seemed so unbelievable, and I didn’t want to bring judgment on myself by misrepresenting God’s words.
That’s not all I stayed silent about, though. I completely stopped talking about my area of bondage. I stopped saying things like, “I’ll always have this problem” or “This is never going to change.” I decided that if God was working in this area of my life, I needed to shut my mouth and not speak against whatever God was doing. This was difficult because for a very long time, from the outside, nothing seemed to be changing. However, way deep inside, like a seed planted deep within the soil, a miracle was taking root.
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[Graphic: Cartoon of Grace looking surprised and asking, “O RLY?!” <Oh, really?> Courtesy Bitmoji.]
God has recently performed a miracle in my life. It’s not one with lots of bells and whistles so that others notice it. In fact, the person close to me who is most affected by it did not realize it had taken place until I pointed it out. However, if you took a snapshot of that area of my life 15 years ago and held it up next to my life today, your jaw would drop. You would find it hard to believe what you were seeing because transformation like that doesn’t happen … and yet, it did.
I’m not going to share the specifics on this blog for three reasons: (1) It’s a private area of my life; (2) It affects someone else, so sharing the details publicly would not be considerate of that person’s privacy; and (3) By not sharing the details, I can paint the concept with a broader brush and, hopefully, inspire you to believe that God has the power to transform your long-term area of struggle as well.
I love this line from the movie Faith Like Potatoes:
The condition for a miracle is difficulty, however the condition for a great miracle is not difficulty, but impossibility.” ~ Angus Buchan
Everyone wants to experience a miracle, but none of us wants to have to endure the conditions necessary to require a miracle. We don’t want to be paralyzed for 38 years or experience blindness since birth. And yet, those are the very people who experienced Jesus’ miracles – those with long-term, impossible situations that only God could change. And God’s intervention brought Him glory.
The primary difference in those stories and mine is that they were healed in an instant. That isn’t my testimony for my miracle, even though my miracle is every bit is powerful as those. Instead, God brought about my transformation a teeny, tiny bit at a time. It happened so slowly that it’s only through hindsight that I can see His hand at work years before I had any awareness that He was moving in this area of my life.
To be continued…
[Graphic: Cover of Faith Like Potatoes. Courtesy Amazon.