Continued from here.
I’m continuing a discussion of the concept of the sinner with the tilted halo from Brennan Manning’s book, The Ragamuffin Gospel: Good News for the Bedraggled, Beat-Up, and Burnt Out:
The saved sinner with the tilted halo has been converted from mistrust to trust, has arrived at an inner poverty of spirit, and lives as best he or she can in rigorous honesty with self, others, and God.”
Being honest with oneself about oneself is one of the most difficult, and yet one of the most freeing, things you can ever do. Manning points out that people who are rigorously honest with themselves, others, and God are nearly impossible to offend because they are already acutely aware of their shortcomings.
For example, if you point out that I am not hospitable or thoughtful, I won’t be offended – I’ll actually agree with you! While I have grown much in both areas, they remain shortcomings of mine, which I don’t deny. I know in the marrow of my bones that God deeply loves me exactly as I am. He is well aware of my tendency toward selfishness and isn’t surprised or offended when I am thoughtless or inhospitable. He gently nudges me toward being more considerate while loving me even when I am not.
Our natural tendency is self-deception, making us easily offended when someone speaks truth to us. I lived this to the extreme. For example, I knew I was overweight because of my binge eating disorder, and I was deeply offended if anyone mentioned it. My being overweight was simply a fact, but I reacted as if someone had intentionally plunged a knife into me if they said anything that I could possibly twist into meaning, “You are fat.” My poor husband was sometimes the recipient of my wrath for simply inviting me to go on a walk around the neighborhood with him. I would hear, “You are fat,” when what he was really saying was, “I love you and would like to spend some time with you.”
I used to believe I had to be “perfect” to be loved. I now know that I am perfectly loved in my imperfection. That’s the heart of the ragamuffin’s authenticity.
To be continued…
[Graphic: Cartoon of Grace like the “X Files,” saying, “The truth is out there.” Courtesy Bitmoji.]